Dear Little Man:
Today was the day I have been dreading for twelve years. It may seem a little melodramatic (you know me, all drama), but I can assure you my fears have been very real. Today, you started school as a senior, which means this is your last first day of school while living at home with Mom and Dad.
THE LAST FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL!
My heart hurts thinking about it, so I have tried not to think about it, yet here it is. I’ve loved being your Mom and having you home with me. From the moment you were born, you changed my world in more ways than you could ever imagine. I’ve loved all your quirky little habits like when you leave your socks on the floor, and your many books all over the house. I love our “deep discussions” in the car about God, philosophy, science, and all the other fun things we talk about. I love that you like my spaghetti and meatballs, and that we like the same tv shows. I love that you love to learn, and you talk to me about all of it. I love your imagination and your intelligence, but most of all I love that big heart of yours. You do for others, you care for others, and you see the good in others when they cannot see it in themselves. You are the most incredible kid a mom could hope for, and I have loved our years together.
As sad I am that you are growing up, I am not going to let this overwhelm me, as it will take precious time away from our moments together. My tears will just make you feel guilty, and you have nothing to feel guilty about. You are growing up, just as you are supposed to, getting ready to spread your wings and soar.
I know our time together is not ending, just changing, so I look forward to all the wonderful things you are going to do with your life and our time together as a family. Do me a favor, please? Take the time to find your own dreams, not ours. Find your own path to walk, one that brings you joy and pride, and work hard to make those dreams come true.
Have I mentioned that you will probably make a few mistakes along the way, get your heart broken (and break a few), and fall on your face once or twice? Please don’t let those setbacks slow you down–you are smart and resilient, and you will be just fine. No matter what happens, you have the love and respect of your friends, family, & Dad and I, and we will always be here to help you through those rough patches. You are not alone. Remember, it is often just after the hardest times in your life that the most wonderful things happen. Take those difficult times as a sign that something wonderful is about to happen, and always look for the new sunrise. It will be there for you.
Enjoy your senior year Little Man. Do not let the stress of school, college applications, and other responsibilities weigh you down–spread your wings and let the wind lift you up.
I love you forever (infinity)!